I went home shortly after the I arrived at class's bbq. Maybe it's the fucking damn long walk back after the incident or something else, I just feel like leaving that place. I chose to walk slowly back home and think about what's the right thing for us. It started to rain suddenly and it's heavy as though people were pouring water from above. Why the fuck it rained when such shit happened to me just moment ago?! I saw flashing lights from the sky and I'm in a park with lot of trees. Didn't lightning strikes people beneath the trees and how the hell the sky missed me? Hah know what? It's actually only two days from confession whereby I got time after all these shit jobs I'm working on but such fucking incidents never misses me. Am I really cursed or what? Fucking damned hell. I'm not blaming anyone here but only myself.. For what? For something I'd done not knowing how and why I managed to land in that situation. Well as for now, it's all over :] Goodbye to all my wishes and hopes!