I'll here for you. Always..
Saturday, February 23, 2008
Im back! Came back from Mind cafe with bro7hers not long ago.. Its always best to hang out with buddies once in a while playing games and have a drink. And yea i'd learned how to play english chess haha thanks Derek.
These few days i'd been struggling about what should i do, i thought many stuffs.. I occupied my 24 hours with reading, studies, mahjong, basketball to kept my mind busy enough not to think of her. One day while im walking along a quiet road reading newspaper, a damn strong wind blow on me. Its so strong that i cant read my newspaper so i stop reading it and kept walking.. The feeling is very strange, although its strong but it blew gently on my face feeling as though its comforting me. Haha sounds crazy eh? I just can feel the peace and quietness and it feels really good so feel like blogging it :]
I'd got the answer i wanted all along. I felt that this will be the ending since the beginning even im stupid haha.
I would like to tell you the meaning here regarding the drawing. Dead tree represents my life without you. The hearts represents you. You made my life colourful and make the tree alive again. If you want to leave, please plug down those hearts for me. I understand sometimes people have to let go things that they cant live without but its something i cant do no matter how hard i try. But if you really want my heart to stop beating for you.. give me some time alright. Sometimes i wonder when had i became so weak? You can make me alot times stronger and happy like theres no tomorrow but you can also make me weaker than jelly. Is that love im experiencing? Or is it just a illusion created by my mind. I wish its only a dream that i can just wake up and forget everything but on the other hand i wish i can dont wake up and keep on dreaming, deceiving myself. I'd felt so loved that even i dont love myself that much. Maybe the love is not true, but i truly appreciated it..
All the words and feelings for you are true. It all really came from the bottom of my heart. Thanks for the wonderful memories.. Although its just a few weeks time but it has became one of the prettiest moment of my life. These few weeks time is like shooting stars. It's so short yet so beautiful.
I never left, patiently waiting..
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